3 posts tagged “piano”
I really need to just...calm the fuck down. I need to take a deep breath and just let things fall into place. I'm so nervous about whether or not I can afford Davis, whether or not I'll finally get a job (Starbucks interview tomorrow!), whether or not I'll get more scholarships, whether or not I'll make yummy, kawaii onigiri for the Art Festival...ugh. The fact that I've been spending a lot of money lately (stupid prom) doesn't ease my mind about the whole money predicament.
I've been distracting myself lately with reading, piano and Smash. I've been reading Street of a Thousand Cherry Blossoms by Gail Tsukiyama and I'm enjoying every single page of it. That's what I get for being a history nerd. I love reading historical fiction, especially about World War II. Also, I've been working on "Planetarium" by Otsuka Ai. It's coming along nicely and I want to play and sing it to Dii. ^_^
Oh, and Smash? I'm getting better! Even Diisays I'm getting better! Yee! My Ganondorf fucking rapes...the end.
All right. I really just have to enjoy the last days of high school. I have prom, the Disneyland trip, Senior Breakfast, Senior Slideshow and, of course, graduation. I can't believe I'm going to finallyget out of this place! YESSSSSSSSSSSSS.
Watching vidoes like this makes me think, 'Now why the fuck aren't I practicing everday like I should be?!' Honestly, I haven't touched the piano in a looooong time (I daresay weeks) because of school and pure laziness. I hate that nagging feeling you have when you really want to do something but you end up not pulling through.
I know it's bad, but fuck studying for all of my tests on Thursday. I'm going to go study some music theory :P
1. Don't half-ass school--do my best.
Yeah, yeah I get A's and B's...but honestly I could get straights A's if I actually tried. >_< I like going to school and learning, I just hate the school work :P Since I can get good grades without studying much or doing a lot of the work, I'm just not motivated. My mentality is 'Shit, if I can get a 4.00 without fucking trying why should I?' Ugh! Bad, bad Cutie-kun! I should've gotten that 4.33 this semester (I actually got a 3.83, not a 4.00 oh my goodness T_T). But hey, I suppose I've deserved the grades, SAT scores, etc. that I've gotten. Instead of being extremely great, I'm satisfied with being good. But I don't want to be just good this coming year, 2008. I want to be fucking awesome. I'll be starting my first semester of college next year, so I'm going to do my best in school. >:O
2. Practice four measures of a song a day.
Everytime I hear all of the piano songs I wish to play, I get a little mad at myself that I just don't, well, practice. Before I stopped lessons with Kumiko-sensei, she told me that learning four measures of a song a day is all I need. No more, no less. I'll stick to that this year (I hope) since my parents won't let (and haven't let me) take piano lessons anymore :\
3. Learn how to sew.
I loooooove DIY clothes, but I don't even know how to sew! All I can do is add little things here or there to a shirt or cut it up into whatever I want. Everytime I need something sewn on, though, I always give it to mon maman to sew for me. I got to learn before I go to college.
4. Be a safer driver.
There's not much to explain...just got to be a better driver. :P
5. Be a better girlfriend to Dii
Haaaaaa. Everytime we fight it's because I'm bitching about something stupid. Better change that :P
