MaryAn

I really want to start making bentos as a hobby now! :D The possibilities are endless and I just love the idea of making cute things out of food. I was thinking about how cool it would be to have a little service for making bento for people. Who wouldn't want an extremely kawaii boxed lunch from your loved one? Here are some examples that I found:

KAWAII NE?! I really like the hotdog flowers.

And finally, check out these amazing Naruto bentos. There are too many sugoi ones to post here.
If you'd like to make bento with me, contact me! It'd be fun! ^_^

Lately I have found all of this cute shit online. *_* While randomly surfing the net, I saw a totemo kawaii Hello Kitty bento. I went crazy and looked up all of these different bentos and I found one that I'd like to make Dylan. (You cannot deny the awesome-ness of the face on that sio pao! It's kind of dumb, but I think it'd be cute to wake up early, don a little 50's apron and make bento. Heeeee =3

I also would love to have something...anything from Cute Plush. (Now if only Alex saw this...) I found out about this store from one of the female smashers on AiB, Milktea. She's the girl modeling the hats. I really want a necklace or earrings.

Le sigh....the kawaii-ness!!!

After reading Zijin's blog about "Why Brawl will kill the Smash community," I sat there contemplating. I actually went on Youtube and watched a lot of Melee videos and now I don't know what I was thinking when I thought, 'All right. Brawl is the new Smash. Just play that.' Oh how dumb that was. Brawl and Melee I believe have pretty different aspects to offer. When I say aspects, I don't mean game content (ie. new characters, stages, music, etc.). I'm talking about the way the game is played. Zijin describes Brawl to be "technically and strategically shallow" the more he plays it. Now, I know 105% that I have not played as much as much as Zijin, but I see where he's coming from. I am no where near as good as most players, but I do see a huge difference in gameplay between the games. Melee has more technqiues (ie. the infamous wavedashing) and actual depth to the fighting than Brawl. Brawl leans more towards defense,.

Thing is, I want to give Brawl more time. In my opinon, this Smash is still new and maybe it's too soon to say that it will "kill the Smash community." While I felt that his argument about Brawl being more on the defensive side to be true, I don't think that would ultimately kill the community. I want to look at Brawl as a new challenge, a new way to play Smash. Although veterans of Melee dislike things like the elimination of wavedashing, I think the Melee veterans should rise up to the challenge and conquer this game, too.

In fact, I believe that just because Brawl is out that we should toss Melee aside. I also believe that just because a lot of old players don't like Brawl that they should toss it aside either. A true Smash player will continue to attend/host tourneys for both games and appreciate/master the different aspects that Melee and Brawl has to offer.

I found a new nerdy indulgence:

www.allisbrawl.com

I'm shatting my pants. Yeah, shat. That's how good it is. But damn, gotta read that biochem chapter for tomorrow...:\

I really like where my life's going right now. I can't wait to be my on my own so that I can do all the things that I want to do. I want to do all of the things I enjoy. I want to study languages, read books, drink green tea, make out hardcore with Dylan, play World of Warcraft, watch dramas, dance, play piano, try on designer clothes and be able to pay for it and, oh yeah, go to college.

I've been thinking that after UC Davis, I want to intern at a cosmetic research place before going straight to graduate school. On the side, I'd like to work at a make-up store like Sephora or Bare Minerals so I can better familiarize myself with the cosmetic industry. On top of that, I think it'd be helpful to get my cosmetic license so I can learn how to put make-up on people like a pro. Afterwards, I really don't know where I'd go to school. London seems really appealing as opposed to Farleigh Dickinson in New Jersey. I want to plan NOW because I was such an r-tard in high school. I want to be really on top of things when I go to college.

As dorky as it is to mention, my heart was racing and I had a fat smile on my face as I was typing up my college plans. I mean, I know I get fickle about some things (especially what I want to do when I'm older), but maybe this is really it. And unlike the other stuff, I know for sure that I can do it. I've got the brains for the science. That's what I like about the idea, honestly. I can't see myself just putting make-up on people...I want to create it myself. And also...oh my goodness I love skin. I love love love love skin. I want to take care of everyone's skin because skin is the most beautiful organ of the human body. It's your identity. It's what's keeping all of your insides from falling out. It tells a person's life history with its scars and cuts and such. It's everyone's own personal pallet, free to put whatever ink or minerals or crap on it. Skin is...amazing. I want to make people acknowledge and appreciate the skin they're in and help them to take care of it and keep it beautiful. Oh my goodness, I've said "beautiful" too many times already, but that's the adjective that comes to mind when I think about skin.

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Oh my goodness, I'm such a freak. I just had a rant about skin. But hey,I think I've found my passion. Heh.

In conclusion of this useless post, I love life right now and I feel like writing about how I love it. I love where life's taking me, I'm in love in love in love with Dylan, I think I've found something that I'm going to stick to and...yeah. The end. Sorry this post was incredibly unintelligent sounding/annoying. Oh well. Deal.

Seeing this picture just made my heart skip a beat. I don't care how nerdy that statement was just now but oh my goodness I'm so fucking excited for the movie! AHHH!!!!!!

I'm starting to get scared of college. Before I wasn't, but now I think it's finally starting to actually sink in how hard it's going to be for me. A double major in Japanese and Biochemistry? Am I crazy? Today when I went in for my job interview (nailed it!) the lady there said that biochemistry at UC Davis was really hard and she actually switched majors because of it. She also said that if I've had a good background in chemistry during high school, I should be fine.

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 Dammit. If you go to my high school, you'll know exactly why I say this. I will not name the school, but seriously our science department needs major improvement. I loved my biology and AP biology teacher, but chemistry and AP chemistry? Oh my goodness, someone help me. I'm pretty sure the biology classes will be a piece of cake for me (yes, even human anatomy.) I'm fairly confident in biology related subjects, and (not to brag) but my memorization is amazing. Now, chemistry? While I may have memorized the atomic weights of the most common atoms, that's not going to get me far...ugh.

This SUCKS, but I really want to get a leg up in college and not slack like I did in high school. College will not be a repeat, and I'll do the best I can. So here it is...MaryAn's Summer Study Plan:

(1.) Do Kanji flash cards everyday...Try to learn at least 200-300 before placement exams in September (for Japanese)

(2.) Memorize periodic table

(3.) Brush up on basic chemistry

(4.) Brush up on basic Japanese grammar/vocab (tutoring Dylan could help)

(5.) Brush up on Geometry, Algebra 2 and Pre-Calc stuff before placement exams in July during Orientation

AZA AZA FIGHTING!!!!

I already showed Aki...Box-chan you must see this amazing-ness.

It's interesting that we're studying depression in psychology right now. All of the symptoms we've been studying make me think that maybe I really could have been clinically depressed (from 7th grade until sophmore year of high school.) However, I refused to see a specialist when my parents noticed how bad my depression got freshman year. Honestly, I feel like my depression really distracted me from school during my freshman and sophmore years. I always felt a heavy feeling on my shoulders and just my whole body. It felt as if I was dragging around chains for three years. I know that it may not have seemed like it at school, but I was distracted and had things to do. When I came home, I just sat around and did nothing. I didn't feel like anything was right. It was probably because of the "not being comfortable in my own skin" thing. Stupid kids in middle school didn't accept the dorky MaryAn. Even my own friends were embarassed for me to be around when they went stupid "boy hunting" at the mall (or be seen with me anywhere period.) I put on better clothes, plucked my eyebrows, wore make-up and left all of my nerdiness behind in high school. Voila! I was likeable! But it did nothing for me and I was still depressed. As soon as I decided, "Fuck what others think!" and got back my nerdy self, I have been so much happier.

In psychology, we had a question we had to answer:

"Are [majorly] depressed people responsible for their actions? Why or why not?"

While Aki and I were thinking about answering the question, I just couldn't stop but think... Was I responsible for not studying as hard as I could have my first two years of high school? Could have I done better? Was it my fault or my depression? Can I blame my depression if I was never officialy diagnosed with it?

When I think these things, I just feel regret and weak. I feel weak because I couldn't push my depression aside and try better in school. Instead I moped around and cried all the time.

Le sigh...but what's done is done. I'm glad that I got over my depression. (I feel like a special someone really helped me, whether he knows it or not :] But that's something I'd rather keep between me and him and not explain on Vox :P) Like Box-chan told me once, I should concentrate more on positive things. So here it goes: I'm proud of myself for snapping out of that dreary-state and back to my regular nerdy self! :D I still have the rest of my life to make up for the three year where I did nothing. Ikimasu!

Time for a new prescription...and new frames! I really like these ones:

I don't want to get my frames at Costco again. The last time I got a new prescription, I didn't change my frames because I didn't like anything that I saw. I want to try Lens Crafters next. I found these Versace glasses on their website.